Updates!

Well, lots happening since my last post!

Ethan went through an awful week of waking every 1.5/ 2 hrs through the night and he seemed genuinly hungry on waking. When finally I had collapsed crying into bed one morning I decided from that night he was going to have to wait for at least three hours in between feeds. I went to bed armed and ready for battle... for him to go back to four/ 4.5 hourly feeds! Thank God!!! LOL

He has just begun what I call a 'proper' laugh this week. One that comes from deep down rather than just those throaty baby giggles. It's the most fantastic sounds and although rare right now he is busy cultivating it! The first time he laughed we were at Corton Ltd show and Nic was making faces at him in his pushchair, I couldnt belive it when I heard it and was so jelous (but pleased too) that Nic was honoured with ETs first laugh!


Me and Nic also have now battled our first sickness while looking after a young baby, we were both really, really ill for about ten hours, all I wanted to do was curl up in bed but we had a baba to take care of. We did some shifts and you know what... I still didnt resent ET, not in the least- he still made me smile even when I felt awful!


Last night I had problems resettling him after his dreamfeed as he needed a total outfit change (poo incident) and decided he was awake and happy. I decided to use the whole feed back to sleep idea but ET decided a better game would be to latch on, then pull off and stare at me with an enormous smile on his face, as soon as Mummy glanced down (trying to stay glazed and NOT smile and encourage him) he would giggle and hide his head coyly in my arm until he managed to make Mommy smile then the game would start over... he is so adorable! Yes, even at 12.20am when Ihave been trying to resettle for two hours!!!

His hand eye coordination continues to improve, he now seems to be able to grab things easily and bring them to his mouth without too much trouble. Everything goes in his mouth and everything is grabbed- especially my hair at 4am during nightfeeds... I put him back in his cot and OW!


Some of my loveliest time with Ethan is his dreamfeeds. I wake him at about 10.30/11pm for a feed before I go to bed and this is always the most relaxing feed of the day. He doesnt usually, wake totally so keeps his eyes closed and his whole little body relaxed with maybe just a hand resting on me on closed around my clothing or fingers. I hope the image of his tiny fingers curled around my hand stays with me forever- it is amazing and makes my heart ache just thinking about it.


I love this boy so much that I didnt think it possible. I cant stand the thought of him ever being sad or in pain and want to make him smile and protect him as much as I can. He is my angel who tests our patience and wills every day but I miss him so much, even when he is just sleeping next door. Daytime naps are a wonderful time. I love it that he will still sleep on my chest- arms wide, wrapped around me, legs and body totally relaxed and draped over me. Head tucked down, as close to me as he can get, little snores and snuffles sounding from his mouth. Cheeks squashed and lips open and innocent. I am so excited for each next stage you will reach Ethan but I wish we could stay like this forever x