Mama Me!

I was thinking the other day about how I used to feel about babies and how much I have changed...

I remember people bringing babies to Agility Shows or training or going off work to have them. I had absolutely no intrest in them at all! Babies just did not push my buttons, I didnt seem to have an ounce of maternal instinct. I wonder now if it was simply because none of my close friends had yet had them. I will always remember the 'change' in me.

We were out for the evening with a group of friends including the Wrights (Becky and Martyn) we started talking about families and Becky admitted they were trying for a baby. All of a sudden the oddest feeling came over me and I wanted my own Baba! Now who knows, maybe it was my competitive nature (If they can have a baby so can we)! But suddenly and instantly I wanted a baby more than anything. I walked over to Nic and told him we HAD to leave as I needed to discuss something with him. We left the bar and I asked him "So how do you feel about trying for a baby"... a few months down the line and there I am 'waddling' around and talking babies, babies, babies!

Ethan is the best thing I have ever done. He makes me laugh and smile all the time. He is a very smiley baby and grins at everyone- charming strangers and friends alike. He has broken through every single one of Nics barriers. I dont think Nic will ever let me in the way he has Ethan. He loves ET totally and with all his heart and head. Just to touch his baby pleases and soothes Nic. No matter how grumpy Et is, when he sees Nic for the first time every evening his face splits into a HUGE grin. I love that bond they have, it touches my heart.